I know the spring is far and
Winter yet to come but
Wait back.
I have to tell you things
That aren’t t about you or me.
I have to tell you how
I spent days crying behind my door
Pretending to clear things up.
How some nights,
The world was worthless around me.
And it rained blue all over me.
When I put songs and emotions
On repeat from dusk till dawn
Not knowing how stars disappear,
Just. Wait back.
I need to tell you
How I questioned myself.
How do you miss something
You’ve never felt?
I have to tell you about how I starred
At empty walls with emptier heart.
I have to tell you
How I stopped feeling
When I should’ve been feeling the most.
You need to know how
I thought shutting myself up
Was the answer to my
Who, when, how, why.
How I kept all of my remaining love
Between my trembling arms.
Don’t run away from me.
I won’t let you run away from me.
I promise I wont give you up this time.
Just. Wait back.
I need to ask you to hold me
Because you love me.
How you and I can grow together.
Grow old. Grow beautiful. Grow strong.
I cannot wait for it.
I have to tell you things that don’t matter,
And that do matter
And leave it on you to decide.
There’s a lot for me to say
And billions for you to read.
There’s millions for me to share
And infinite for you to know.
Just. Wait back.
Look, the night is almost over yet.
Will you wait back?
Let’s watch the sunrise together.
- Ishita Agrawal
- SEE Batch 2075 BS
- Shikshantar Alumni
